Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Fall musings

Last night our heater kicked on. Considering the fact that this Hooah household stays nice and cool and we like it that way, it must have gotten quite a bit chilly.
This day has been deceptively full of sunlight but yet very chilled. I LOVE it!!! There was frost on my screen door this morning and I got so excited!!!!

I've been doing quite a bit of gluten free recipes from Pinterest,sewing, and I have volunteered at my church's private school as a part time preschool teacher. Yesterday was my first day and I REALLY loved it. I can't wait to see what kind of adventures I'm going to have while working there.

As mentioned I have been testing out many gluten free recipes from Pinterest lately and here are a few winners!
First up is this gorgeous  pan of breadsticks made from cauliflower. My only problem was it seemed to have a kind of flat aftertaste. Still working on the recipe to see if we can tweak that out of there. Otherwise, it was great.

Next was hamburger helper!
I know, I should be banished for mentioning a typical meal from a box, but I was craving it so much!! I just had to see if I could recreate it but without the gluten and processed junk. It was very successful!!!
 Last, but certainly not least are these adorable pumpkin chocolate chip muffins!!! I loved them so much I had to take more than one picture!!

Moving on to focusing on fashion; I didn't get the chance this week to play much with the things I've been making. For some reason I was a little off and just wanted to LIVE in baggy tshirts and yoga pants. But, the very few times my body left my pjs I managed to squeeze in a couple different looks.

I laugh every time I see this picture. Because I felt so awful that day and was headed to the dr. For some antibiotics. I remember thinking I wish I was sleeping right now instead of trying to look human.
This scarf is like a really awesome hug. So far I've paired it with black and white stripes and now fur..... I'm really loving both.
This circle skirt was a breeze to make with material I found at goodwill . I'm having a lot of fun mixing up the styles, but this past Sunday I went with a retro cowgirl look and of course felt so at home in it!!! "If I can't wear my cowgirl boots, then I'm not going" Jk I LOVE my boots, but there are other things more important than boots.

Seriously though, I am loving this skirt.

Regarding our adoption journey.... The Lord has been doing so much working in my heart. I'm trusting in His timing... Of course every adoptive mother will understand that I just can't wait for that baby to be in my arms. Thank God , that while He has us waiting , He's been teaching me so much.
I've been reading a lot of birth mother stories lately . I'm trying to understand and see adoption from their point of view . After all, if it wasn't  for a birth mother , I wouldn't have the chance to be a parent again, my son would never be a big brother, and we wouldn't get the joy of gaining more family. I'm starting to realize that when I finally do meet her, I want to have my heart totally open to her. Not just the child that we will share. But, I want God to open my heart and bless her, pray for her, love her. As far as I'm concerned she's family. She is special. She is loved and wanted by me, the adoptive mother. This baby that we will share is going to be loved so much. And , I want to rest of the world to look at us , our individual stories; The birth mother and father, the adoptive mother and father, the little boy who gets the chance to be a big brother and have a sibling, and the little baby that all of us will share together. I want people to look at that and say WOW!!! God is so good, because only He can do something like that. God is good and gracious and His grace covers all of our uncertainty and anxiety!!!
Praise the Lord!
I hope all of you have a beautiful day!
Mrs. Hooah

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

A journey of healing

Good day lovelies!!!

What a beautiful fall day it is!! I'm still working on photos for the different ways I've been styling some of my recent projects! I'm excited to share so many low cost fashion ideas with you!!

As I mentioned before in my last post, I've been dealing with health issues lately.
( sigh) I feel as if I'm always posting that. And, it got me wondering. I have been in and out of dr. Offices for going on years now, but I haven't sought out healing from the Word of God. It kind of shocked me, because I believe that God can heal me, but I think I leave it there. All that to say that I've started a journey of learning about sickness and healing from the Word of God. I have no clue, where this study will take me. Already , I've studied one passage in James and I'm chewing on what God has to say. If any of our lovely readers has studied this particular subject in Gods Word I'd love to hear what you've found. You can leave a comment with your favorite bible passage about sickness and healing. I can't wait to see what happens!

So now it's time for a recipe review!!!!

I found this recipe on Pinterest and we tried it out last week! It was fairly easy to make. I made two small mistakes. 😁 I didn't read the directions for the rice noodles , and let them soften in cold water as opposed to the correct way of soaking them in HOT water. So, it took longer to cook than usual, but still turned out SO GOOD!!! My other mistake was that I used actual soy sauce ( which has gluten FYI), I think my brain was missing that day. So my tummy was in a small amount of pain later, but it still turned out great! I think what I liked the most is that, this is a very forgiving dish! My husband actually requested that we make it a regular!

The low cost fashion for today is this awesome outfit!

The jeans were found on sale at my good ol' Post Exchange! 7.00 bucks ladies...... And they are by far the most comfy jeans I've put a leg into!
The necklace is from premier designs ( not low cost, but definitely an investment since I wear it a TON)
Tank was a dollar from Walmart, and the belt and cardigan were from a thrift store.

I hope you all have wonderful days, and good food in your bellies!!!
Love, mrs. Hooah

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Growing in Grace

Hello friends, it been an eternity since I have posted. 

I can't apologize, because my time away from here was needed.

But, I can say that it feels good to be back.
Blogging is special to me, I know it's completely outdated and I break ALL the rules for a successful blogger. But, I also know that all of that is ok. The handful of people that DO read this blog, I'm VERY grateful for!

All of that said... Here is an update 😍

My sweet soldier had to have heart operation a little while ago. He is fully recovered and loving life to the fullest now! Praise God!!

Our adoption is moving right along, at the pace that God has designed. Gonna be totally honest here, I wish it was moving faster, but I trust that God has everything figured out.

This has been so hard. 14,000 is how much we need to be able to have our profile books shown to birth mothers. We've been applying for grants, and slashing personal costs where we can, but we've hardly budged . 
I'm so thankful for the friends that have contacted us about doing fundraisers on our behalf , and I'm grateful for how the Lord has worked on my heart during this waiting period! 
Anyone reading this, that would like to donate to our adoption can go to youcaring.com Operation Growing Paynes.

Fun fact, that I have found out with my own health problems lately..... My body will no longer allow gluten. Like not even a little bit. I went gluten free a bit ago to see if it would relieve some chronic pain in my stomach that I've been dealing with, and it seemed to be at least taking the edge off. Then I went to a women's retreat with our church, ate something that I didn't know contained gluten, and boy howdy!!! Was I in pain?!?!? It was awful . Thankfully there was a sweet lady in the group that eats gluten free and she was able to educate me on how to be able to live. Lol. Clearly, I have a ton to learn. It's going to be a long road, I can tell. But, at this point I am so desperate for something that works!
Speaking of the women's retreat.... What an incredible time!
The women at my church have so sweetly ministered to me! And you know what is funny about it? Not in the way that I've expected. There is something about the way they fellowship, and encourage that has just blessed me so much. It's almost as if they are so focused on Jesus that nothing else matters. My pastor's wife spoke about spending time with God daily at the women's retreat. She was so humble and gracious in the way that she urged us to grow in God's grace. I've grown so much at our new duty station. I love how God takes all my expectations and He does the complete opposite. We had a wonderful time together, I've never really gone to things like that with my church, but I'm glad I went this year. I'm glad I didn't miss out on some grace that I didn't know I so badly needed!

With the beginning of fall, I have done a TON of designing and sewing!!!

It makes my heart so happy!!
Annnnnddddd I'll soon be branching into QUILTING!!!! My SoldierMan got me a few quilting books and a quilting hoop. I'm so excited!!! I'll be working on a special quilt for the baby we are adopting!  Coming soon as well, there will be a special post about decorating your nursery on a very tiny budget!! I'm excited about the rustic Winnie the Pooh theme, and sharing all the details with you!

For now, here's a little taste of what I've been crafting together!
There will be individual posts on each project with a few ways of how I style them, soon. 
This glitter peplum top! 
This knit, striped, circle skirt!
This plaid blanket scarf!
This navy and cream skirt!
This red vest!

Can't wait to share these with yall! It's time to close for today, thank you to all our readers, yall are awesome and we LOVE sharing Our Messy Faith with you!!!

Monday, August 22, 2016

Learning to Unconditionally Love an Imperfect Body.

   Hello, All my Darling Lovelies.
     Today`s post isn't going to be the easiest for me to talk about, in fact its going to be very hard to    share these personal moments from my life. Why, you may ask, am I making the choice to share?  Because, for so long I've hidden in the shadows, filling my self with hate, pity, disgust and  tormenting my soul that I wasn't good enough to be healthy and happy with my body. Because, I  have broken those awful chains and hope that maybe someday, my story can help someone step into  the sun and let go of baggage, self hate and depression that they may be holding on to.
I had to learn how to first open my heart up and let Jesus love me, without trying to limit Him. So So SO not easy when you've been caught up in a selfish cycle of hating yourself!
and then through so much grace, slowly learn (still learning) how to love myself enough to take care of what I've been blessed with.

  I'll start with my back story, and share my journey so far (for it is far from over) and include a few things that helped me and motivated/inspired me to make a very needed change.

 Age 9 : I started my weight struggles at such a very young age and have never once in my life been healthy, at nine years old i remember being uncomfortable around other girls my age because i felt huge next to them. I wasn't in fact I was simply a little bit chubby, but in my young mind I was convinced I was ugly and no one would like the chubby girl. So, I became shy, quiet and kept to myself most of the time.

Age 13 : I got taller, evened out a bit and got some majorly womanly curves at the ripe old age of 12 1/2- 13so I was in much better spirits, even though I wasn't considered tiny I at least had a woman's body and didn't feel huge up near other girls. You think I'd be happy right? wrong, I still was uneasy around girls with the perfect body because I was what you would call soft and slightly squishy ( I've always had a belly due to poor eating choices) and was beginning to see my lower belly.

Age 16-17: I weighed 150-158 and looked good (not skinny but thinned out for once)! I felt good about myself I was more confident and outgoing and no-one could really see my stomach because I got good at sucking it in and hiding it with my skirt or pant. I wish I could have held on to that time in my life and just made my change then! 90% of my hurt and hate wouldn't have existed, and I would have started my adult life a healthy well balanced person. But, I didn't know any better and continued with my bad eating habits and lazy personality.

Age : 18-19: The weight gain was so quick (178-190)  I didn't take time to think or change, just pull back into my shell and try to eat my feelings away and lay on my bed as soon as I got home from work. You'd think that having the most amazing boyfriend in the world would make me get up and get moving. But, instead, I told myself he couldn't possibly love me, when I couldn't even love myself. I almost lost the most precious thing to me, because I was so consumed by this dark cloud hanging over my head. And  I filled my days with hating myself and being bitter because I was fat and didn't think I was worth anything at all.

Age 20-21: I've tried every fad diet and quick fix out there, only to have the weight come back with a vengeance. I did a month challenge with my parents and got myself down to 175 I was so proud and ecstatic, but, because it was just another quick fix for me ( i had trouble committing to change or for longer than a week or two) the weight came back and I weighed in at 193 on my wedding day (the pictures I've wanted to burn, but now choose to see them as part of my story). I truly I became pregnant a few months later and was so sick my weight went down to 180 and that's where I started my pregnancy journey. I didn't eat healthy, didn't think twice about exercising about weighed in at 198 when I had Oorah princess. Over this time I let my self hate and depression run rampage through my life, I was less than sweet to my husband (that darling man, is so full of grace and forgiveness and patience) ( I don't know where I would be today without the grace of God and my personal blessing Mr Oorah Love) and didn't give myself a fighting chance for when I was post baby. I fell into PPD really bad, it affected my health, well being and my poor family suffered because of my lack of being there, I was always right there, just a million miles away in my mind.... Feeling like I needed a change I started walking and trying to eat a healthy meal a day. and I slowly got myself to 183 but it didn't last! UNBELIEVABLE RIGHT? I'll tell you why though, because I was doing it for the wring reasons and didn't commit to a change.

 It's so very sad to see this vicious cycle again and again. But, then, one day I made a change, and this time it stuck, because I changed my heart first! Here is where it started.

 First I had to see that what I was doing was wrong!

Then I had to Forgive myself and let God have a hold of my heart and let Him love me, and teach my how to love myself and the body He has given me. Enough to take care of me, enough to set an example for my kid(s) and also be a better wife to my husband. I had to change in order to be a better wife and mom. and my heart did change.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20

19 Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own?20 For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's.

1 Corinthians 10:31

31 Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God 

Enter the present! last few months of 21- first few of 22 : Ashamed and self hate? NO MORE WHY?! because, God loved me enough to send His own son for me, so I can learn how to love myself enough to be happy healthy and active!!!! Instead I am, Loving myself enough to make healthier choices and focusing on the daily positives!
Lazy and always in bed? not anymore! instead, fully committed to a workout challenge and daily exercise on my own time. Time spent playing with baby, working on projects, keeping my house neat and tidy, and prepping our home for dinners and evenings spent as a family. I started my change four months ago at 198.6 almost 200lbs) I looked in the mirror and decided that I deserved to be happy, my body deserved to be healthy, my husband deserved a joyful, loving wife, my baby deserved an attentive and active mother! So I started small, I made changes in my diet and counted calories. I found my self a good routine to follow and added my own exercise to top it off. The difference is mind blowing to me. I'm nowhere near where I'm headed, but I am learning to love the journey. I weighed in this morning at 174.8 and have lost over 30 inches all over. Not quite to my halfway goal and there have been a few plateaus, but I'm not giving up! I am pressing forward and continuing on. I am more fit and healthy than I have ever been in my life. I started with a 15 min mile and have cut that down to 9 1/2 mins. I started with 1.lb weights and have worked my way up to 10lbs. I can hold 3, 1min planks and can see a huge change in my body. I am mentally and physically strong. I have dreams and goals. I know I will one day reach!
Our fridge is no longer filled with garbage, but, with healthy food. We don't starve or deprive our bodies, we chose instead to balance.! It's OK to have ice cream! it's OK to have a day off. but never ever ever give up!

Thanks for taking the time to read my story and  hope in some way you, yes you, can take this and start your own change!

I love you all so dearly,
Forever yours,
  Mrs Oorah.

Monday, August 1, 2016

Still Alive! *mrs oorah*

Hi guys, it's been quite awhile! But, good news, I'm back! Sweet pea is 14 months old and dear goodness has grown up way way way too fast! Just wanted to stop by and say I miss this, I miss blogging and sharing my heart so I'll be back tomorrow with a long long update on life and general happenings. Here is a picture of my bitty family! Love Mrs Oorah.